My Sin
The darkness stills in my thoughts
I don't know what I'm feeling anymore
Sometimes I'm okay but sometimes I'm not
Sometimes I wanna smile and pretend everything’s ok
but suddenly I realize that I can't pretend what's in my eyes!
No one can really understand the sadness I'm in
it's more than tears, It's more than pain
It's a sin, it's insane!
Sometimes I cry all night trying to put it all out
but the pain is strong and it won't come out!
writting it kinda helps me
but hurting myself does too
I don't know if I can take it
I'm sick of this blue!
For a time I knew what I was crying for
now I cry for something more
something I can't explain
something deep, bigger than pain!
I'm so insecure, so self-destructive
why? why do I have to be this way?
I should be able to love myself
loving who I am
instead I keep inside all this pain!
Why?!?
I'm a sin,
sin of the unknown
of the ignorance
of the innocence
of stupidity
I should be able to love myself
today, tomorrow and everyday!
I tried everything but it's so damn hard
I should be able to get out of the dark!
I want to find my light, my guide, myself
I want to find the happiness
of being with someone else!
I L U V u my love
but I can't love me!
but I know that some day
I'll get out of this sin!
So for you I keep this promise
one day, somehow
I'll be able to love
what I can't love now!
